outside my window it is a beautiful day. our windows and doors are open and the gentle breeze is flowing through our house, allowing the old to wash away. it has been a long, cold winter and i’m so thankful that we’re finally experiencing the joys of spring.
i am thinking about how much there is to do. my list continues to go despite there not being enough hours in the day. but for this moment and for my sanity, i will write.
i am thankful for justin being home. he traveled this past week and while this is the first time in some months, my world isn’t right when he’s not here.
remembering to trust in God despite my circumstances. it’s easy for me to get wrapped up in my day-to-day and i neglect to remember that God is forever in control and there’s no need for me to be. i like to maintain control. one day i will learn.
from the learning rooms i’m learning to be a wife. sound strange? well, this is the first time in the six months that justin and i have been married that we’re in our home by ourselves. we’ve had a guest with us for the past few months and prior to that justin was traveling. while we’ve had weekends and days here and there, it’s not the day-to-day normalcy that we’ve been able to experience. it’s a good thing that i love this man more today than i did even when i married him. i am so thankful.
from the kitchen i think i need to learn more recipes for the crock-pot. according to justin, this will make our lives easier. we’ll see. J
i am wearing my black comfy pants with a purple hoodie. it’s perfect for the brisk spring morning with all of the windows and doors open.
i am creating order in a crazy life that i have. there’s no time for fun projects like decorating various rooms in our house, which we still haven’t done since we moved in and i’m dying to do, or working on our wedding album, which is still sitting in a pile somewhere. but i am maintaining my sanity and that is quite a feat right now. and believe me, it takes some creativity on my end to strike that balance.
i am going to start waking up early to exercise. if you know me, you know this is quite a challenge. since justin will likely read this, yes, babe, i will start waking up early. there are usually plans in the evening and if there isn’t, there is little motivation to do much after a long, hard day of work. i. will. do. this.
i am reading tatiana de rosnay’s book, sarah’s key. i’m always fascinated by holocaust stories but obviously it’s never easy. while i’m not too far in, this story is no different – it’s a tough read. and some of you will be proud to know that i’ve not read the end yet – don’t get me wrong, it will likely happen but i should be given some credit for the restraint that i’ve demonstrated to this point!
i am hoping for a lot of things right now. change mostly. sorry, folks, that’s all your getting on this world wide web.
i am hearing birds chirp, the hum of cars passing, justin making comments here and there and the mumford & sons pandora station. bliss.
around the house i see flowers. J my husband knew that i had a really hard week last week and i came home to a lovely bouquet of flowers. the flowers are nearly dead now but i’ve not thrown them out because it just makes me happy to even see dead flowers because it reminds me that he’s here and cares. sappy, i know.
one of my favorite things is california pizza kitchen’s bbq chopped salad with avacado. with having had such a hectic week, justin and i called and order some cpk grub and brought it back home to enjoy in the comfort of our own home. sweet simplicities.
pondering the issue of the death penalty. heavy, i know. the chris coleman case wrapped up this week and the jury decided that he is eligible for the death penalty. this case hit a little closer to home as he attended the church that i went to for a period. while i never knew him, i have friends who do and it’s strange to think that a friend of a friend (or used to be friend) would be capable of doing something like this. i have followed this case closer than most others because of this obscure connection and it has raised many questions in my mind but more recently that of the death penalty. i’ve never really had a strong opinion either way on the topic because i can argue on both sides. for me, there’s a constant struggle between “an eye for an eye” and judgment being the Lord’s. chris coleman, if he did kill his wife and 2 sons in a premeditated fashion, is the very reason why states have the death penalty. there are only a few other crimes that are more heinous than this and that makes me think that this man is very just and deserving of such a punishment. but ultimately, i believe that his punishment from the Lord, apart from true repentance, is far greater than anything that we could ever imagine – a life apart from God. but how do we reconcile that of earthly and eternal judgment? it’s a good thing that i’m not God. His ways are better than mine…
a few plans for the rest of the week include insanity at work, dinner with an old friend and beginning my early morning work outs – say a prayer as i’ll need it! ;)
